- worst scenario -to me the worst scenario that can happened is...
when u saw ur fren msging someone else.. and in the msg content is scolding u.. saying u r stupid.. to the person that he/she is msging to.. =X
can u believe it.. i witness this myself today.. =X
sec 5 that yr.. 15 mins before chinese o's paper starts.. my frens ignore me until one of them told me.. that the friendship i've with them for the 4yrs plus.. they no longer cherish.. and they don't need me to be in their life anymore..
what is the expression am i having tt moment..? i lose all my consciousness.. i cldn't concentrate on my paper..
my entire mind was filled with thoughts like.. what they wanna do such a thing to me at this moment..?
throughout the papers.. i cried.. and i can hardly see what i'm writing.. immediately that moment i sink into depression.. since then.. i have never gotten back up..
i hardly trust anyone.. to me.. now all my frens.. they never succeed in getting close to me anymore.. i've draw the line until so obvious..
my joy and sorrows and worries.. i never share much with anyone.. the pain i experience.. i don't allow anyone to understand..
why am i writing abt all these.. cos what i experience today.. felt like what i'm experiencing back then..
my mind is filled with those thoughts again..
am i such a lousy fren..? or is it that i'm alway the one that is not gd enough for anybody.. =X whichever the case.. i know i've not done anything wrongly this time to anybody..
