- miss SOT -2 days have passed since the graduation.. i'm starting to miss the time spent in SOT.. morning praise and worship.. session with the various pastor.. or by Bobby..
i really miss everyone i spent time with.. the time i spent serving with Joey, Johan, LeeLee, Jamie, Tavia and Ronald.. it's really an honor to be able to serve together with them.. learning so much from them too.. =)
these 5 months had been a great privilege for me to be able to go into SOT.. i remember the very day before SOT.. i was still struggling with my own selfish thinking and nature.. cutting my own wrist due to some reasons.. struggling my own emotions.. however.. i manage to breakthrough from it.. =)
people around me in my team.. most of them also went through depression before.. it really makes me realise that i'm not alone facing this depression by myself anymore.. i'm thankful that all of us as a team have grown up so much.. =)
these 5 months.. i had serve so much that i couldn't believed that i did.. i had learn so much that i couldn't believed that i did.. i had treasure my friends so much that i couldn't believed that i did.. i had changed so much that i couldn't believed that i did..
areas that i've grown in these 5 months.. start to dress more lady like.. start to open up to my friend like never before.. start to trust again.. start to get less emotional.. start to get less depressed..
people that i'm missing right now.. joy, shu jen ( aka. shi mu ) , hsin yi, yufen, jodie, shirley, juliana, zoe, hui mei, lynette, chui laam, clara, nuam, hwee ling, lingual.. samuel, ronald yong, desmond, raymond, benedict, moses.. jamie, tavia, ronald teng, lee lee, joey, johan..
there are much more people i'm missing.. too many to be named.. so i can only named all my team members.. =) i need you.. i really need you.. =P pls don't leave my life.. come back..
time flies too fast.. that i do not know how to react.. now entering into the next phase of my life.. and i do not know how to react to it.. i do not know how to face the next phase of my life..
teach me and guide me.. =X
11:31:00 AM ~♥ hEaRt pRiNtS ♥~
23 August 2008
- SOT graduation dinner pics -
let the picture speaks.. =P
jennifer and me
joey and me
kim hock and me
lingual and me
shuxia, salome, elly and me
bobby, cindy and me
braven, theresa and me
chui lamm and me
desmond and me
gin, gin and me
i enjoyed myself alot last night for my graduation dinner.. it's really a breakthrough time for me.. as you know.. i don't wear skirt.. but for that night.. i wore a mini skirt.. and a girl girl top.. =X
after last night.. i can said.. i'm starting to gain back my confidence to become a girl again.. =) however.. i can said.. i will slowly start to dress up more.. =)
oh yah.. so for last night.. i was being nominated as one of the best dressed person.. hmmm.. i didn't won the prize anyway.. but i enjoyed myself alot.. =)
i took lots of pictures.. but these are some of them.. as i don't feel like upload everything here.. =X maybe i can show it to you when you happened to bump into me when i have my laptop.. =)
that's all for now.. =) as i need to go for my graduation already.. bye bye.. =P
1:20:00 PM ~♥ hEaRt pRiNtS ♥~
20 August 2008
- shopping -i went shopping with Jessica just now.. i really enjoyed myself alot alot alot.. =P
reason being i missed shopping so much.. i guess shopping got to find the right people to shop with bahz.. so that it will be so enjoyable.. =)
anyway.. i bought a skirt.. and a super girl top.. hahaha.. =X how will i look like..?? hmmm.. maybe i will post it once i took photo with it..
anyway.. i will be wearing them on friday for my graduation dinner.. so i guess most people will "wow" at me again.. hahaha.. =P
seriously.. i'm still not very confident in wearing skirts and girl's top.. however.. i will try la.. no harm trying.. hahaha.. =P guess after i tried out a few times.. i might slowly get used to it le.. haha.. =P
hmmm.. i wanna go shopping for more clothings.. clothings that are not too girl or too boy.. hahaha.. =P
anyway.. i pluck my eye-brown too.. haha.. all these are for the coming graduation.. =X manz.. i'm so stressed out by my graduation.. =X i scared i will just walked away and forget to wait for pastor to move the furry thing on the mortar board towards the other side.. =X haha.. i got to learn to relax.. =P if not i will simply just become too overly anxious for nothing.. hahaha.. =X
11:47:00 PM ~♥ hEaRt pRiNtS ♥~
19 August 2008
- questions to -i've been wondering upon some things in my mind the entire day.. hmmm.. i was thinking what are such things happening.. anything.. it is nothing serious la..
recently i'm having my exams.. stressful to the max.. however.. i guess i should be able to pass everything.. =)
that's all.. cos i'm dozing off le.. =X
10:35:00 PM ~♥ hEaRt pRiNtS ♥~
17 August 2008
- 5 more days -these five months in SOT.. i've grew in certain areas.. these areas that i've grew.. it is being strengthen.. however.. there are still areas that i'm super weak in..
anyway.. recently.. i'm quite upset.. however.. it took me quite a while to get over this sadness.. anyway.. i'm back to the cheerful girl..
i'm graduating on SAT, 23 Aug 2008.. for my SOT graduation.. so if can.. pls try to make it for my graduation.. your presence do make a difference in my life.. =)
if you wanna get me a gift.. these are some suggestions: * study bible * books on theology, christology, relationship * mp3 player ( iPod classic )
if you wanna date me out to eat after my graduation ceremony.. these are some suggestions: * cafe cartel * dim sum * hong kong cafe * pepper lunch * korean steamboat * sakae sushi
okiez la.. these are just suggestions la.. no pressures la.. i won't expect anyone to date me out to such expensive places la.. or even buy me such expensive gifts.. =X
anyway.. i wish and i wish.. that all my taiwanese and china friends can don't go back to their homeland.. i wish that all of them can stay in Singapore.. as i will miss all of them.. =X my heart really goes all out for all my friends.. how should i live without you all by my side.. =X
10:06:00 PM ~♥ hEaRt pRiNtS ♥~
13 August 2008
- attached -recently Pastor Kong is really like a father to me.. he not only spent time with us teaching in the class and answering our questions.. he also shows us how concern he is with our single-hood-ness..
all i can said is that.. what he shared with us throughout these 2 days.. when he touched on the topic of self and companionship.. it really impacted me in a certain way for my life..
i'm believing that it can happened in my life too.. i know that i also want to get attached by end of this year.. however.. just let nature take its course bahz.. =X cos after so many things happened at the beginning of this year.. i'm a bit fearful la.. so let's see how it goes bahz.. =)
that's all i wanna say for this issue.. =P
8:55:00 PM ~♥ hEaRt pRiNtS ♥~
- counting down to graduation -time flies so fast..
2 more days of lessons with Pastor Kong.. and that's it for us in SOT le.. =(
next week..
Monday we are having lesson with Pastor Kevin Loo, Pastor Tan Seow How and Dr. Ngoei Tuesday and Wednesday are exams.. Thursday need not go school.. cos I need not re-take any papers.. Friday will be our graduation rehearsal and dinner with Pastors.. =) Saturday and Sunday is our BIG DAY.. =P
recently i've been blogging very little.. as i do not know what to blog about..
i don't feel like blogging about emo entries.. cos later people around me will start questioning me..
but to be very truthful.. i quite emo these few days.. reason being.. i'm graduating in 10days time.. i simply can't believed it.. =X
i got to admit that i'm those kind of people that can't let go easily.. when it's time to let go.. i really need to let it go.. but it is way too hard to let it go.. =(
i miss you..
8:36:00 PM ~♥ hEaRt pRiNtS ♥~
10 August 2008
- graduation -it's almost time for graduation again..
this graduation means so much to me.. for a moment i was wondering.. can i not graduate at all.. =X cos i will miss all my friends.. especially international friends..
time really flies.. 5 months like that flew passed me in just a wink of an eye..
the first day of school.. i was almost late for school.. reason being.. i overslept my stop.. haha.. now when i think back.. i realize how stupid i was that time.. hahaha.. but somehow it is very cool.. every morning wake up early for lesson.. =) i seldom does that when i'm in polytechnic.. cos i don't like to wake up early.. i like to sleep until very late.. haha.. =X
thinking about all these..
throughout this 5 months.. God has been really GOOD to me.. He not only bless me financially.. He blessed me in every areas of my life.. even to the very detail of it.. He also did notice of it.. =)
areas like: sending people to drive me down to school everyday.. sending people to buy me breakfast / lunch / dinner.. providing me jobs to work.. giving me the very energy and strength to go through each day.. wisdom to be able to carry out my duty on the stage or areas that i'm called to serve in.. wisdom to do my assignment.. time being used to the max.. =)
new friendships are build.. friendships with current friends are strengthen to another higher level.. =)
i'm really thankful for these 5 months.. =)
10:19:00 PM ~♥ hEaRt pRiNtS ♥~
03 August 2008
- quotes by Edwin Louis Cole - 03 Aug -A dream doesn't become a goal until it is written.
Attitude determines the altitude of life.
Boundaries are to protect life, not to limit pleasures.
Character is more important than talent.
Confidentiality is a virtue of the loyal, as loyalty is the virtue of faithfulness.
God never ends anything on a negative; God always ends on a positive.
Good is often the enemy of best.
The degree of loving is measured by the degree of giving.
When the pressure comes, preferences give way while convictions hold firm.
Your best friend and worst enemy are both in this room right now. It's not your neighbor right or left - and it's not God or the devil - it's you.
jennifer and me
joey and me
kim hock and me
lingual and me
shuxia, salome, elly and me
bobby, cindy and me
braven, theresa and me
chui lamm and me
desmond and me
gin, gin and me