- double blow in a semester -first is my cmsk grouping.. now is my mp grouping.. what is going on..??
why sabotage me..????????
cmsk grouping: my group mate consists of me, a gal and a guy.. both of them don't come for lesson usually.. tt time when report is about to due.. the gal didn't do anything.. the entire report ended up me writing it all alone.. =X on the submission both of them nv come.. i don't even have the latest copy with me.. =X
i got to beg teacher to give me some time while i go print it out.. which i only got 30mins to redo the entire thing and submit it.. that day i cried in front of my teacher.. =(
now..
mp grouping: actually i can't blame this member of mine.. it is more like miscommunication..
there is a few times i keep asking him what is the part that i need to do.. but he just didn't want to tell me and get everything done.. so i only end up doing all the mins and reports for the group..
a while ago.. he called me up.. indirectly.. he said that i didn't do anything.. i didn't said much.. but more like he already know what i want to say..
however i can't blame it on him.. in fact i really did very minimum things.. except the reports and mins is all i do for them de.. programming part.. i didn't do that much.. as i'm not told by him what i'm suppose to do each time..
i don't understand why i'm the leader for this MP.. to me.. i don't desire to be one.. as they never update me about anything.. i wasn't told about anything.. i wanted to do the coding.. but he nv gives me anything to help.. as he afraid i will screw it up for him.. =X now.. he called to tell me that i didn't do anything..
he felt guilty over it when talking to me on the phone just now.. but i told him.. no worries la.. not his fault also.. cos i don't want him to be worrying over it.. cos i don't want him to keep on feel bad over it..
however.. i still feel unjust over it.. somehow not entirely my fault.. but i got a feeling i might failed my MP..
somehow now.. i see the true nature of everyone ard me.. they are not here to be my frens.. rather ppl who will harm me.. i'm afraid.. leave me alone.. don't come near me..
time and time again in this last semester of mine.. people who once are my frens.. have turn into ugly beings to hurt me.. why is it so..?? have i done anything wrongly..??
tired.. really tired.. pls stop all these sabotage on me..!!!
i've got no more tears to cry le.. leave me alone..!!!! stop coming near me.. if you are here to give me another slap on my face.. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE !!!!
